I have been MIA from SL for one reason only....
I quit smoking.... this past Tuesday.... the 23rd of Sept 08.. about 3:30 pm.. funny thing is,... as I smoked that cigg I had no clue I would not pick up another.
I have never done that before. The other times I have tried to quit I had always planned it out saying something like; "This is my very last cigg. Then no more forever."
I didn't do this... this time.... I just decided at some point later that night.. that I would not go out for a new pack... and I would not smoke a half butt or two or three sitting in my ash-tray.
Last time I tried to quit, I failed by this point smoking a few drags already.... this time I have had none.
This time, I am not saying I am quiting.... this time I am not saying I will be an ex smoker....
this time I keep saying... "I will be free. I will be f**king free from nicotine cause I am sick of it."
I am still wigging out and sort of blah... taking diazepam.. only 1 a day.. it helping.
okies the MIA reason now.. almost forgot... I smoke quite alot while I work... getting up from my desk going for a butt thinking a design thru in my head... I tried to sit and work... but omg.. it is torture.... Soooo as I go thru the hardest first few days of FREEING myself... I have to just lay and sleep... plus I feel foggy like a pretty heavy flu is on me, granted it just the side-effects.
K that's it... if this came out all distorted and foggy.. I 100% blame the mucus mess building up in my head and throat...
Reading back on this... I even seem blah to me.. dam and my energy normally sooo not blah... I'll get up again... soon.. and pump out my up-beat creations soon enough.
ciaos for now
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